"Welcome to my world - a typical teenager striving to find the joys of life. Click for the about me."
Actually, I'm just your stereotypical tired Asian teenager suffering from sleep deprivation and a load of work. Just your average personal ranting and whining blog of se7enpercent, along with little tidbits of my life here and there. Little stories of my past, I guess. Not legal, female, sunnyd cali.
Song: 1:59PM - Without U.
My mouth is foul; I need soap.
So I’ve been seeing Tumblr turn into some dumbsh!t of a social network / dating site, and people moving to Blogspot. Girls being dickriders on guys who could care less. Tumblr used to be a blogging site that I loved now became a place where girls show off their bodies and shit. Pretty soon, I think I’ll move to blogspot. Good idea? Yeah.
- Drake x Coldplay October’s Very Cold Mixtape
I’ve been thinking a lot lately..
Sometimes, blood runs thinner than water. Just sometimes, just for a moment. It isn’t about last night though. I had this thought on my mind for quite a while.
I want keep a close friend a close friend, because I know.. if there’s a break-up, I’ll push everything and everyone away.
I just finally realized that sometimes, I do take you for granted.
Every time when he bitches at me, you find me crying and ask what’s wrong. I just brush you off and tell you to give me some space. Right now, when I need you the most, you’re not giving a crap. In the past, I just brush everyone aside and say “I’m fine,” which is the biggest lie ever. I’m sort of regretting it now because all I really need is someone to listen to me and a hug. Mom, I wish I didn’t take your caring personality for granted because I could really use a hug right now.
I like to make phone calls short.
I have over 5,000 RO minutes left, untouched.
And sometimes, it just pains me to wait for someone to log on AIM. And the same thing runs over in my mind, “Should I drop them a call?” Even if I’m waiting for a best friend to log on. Usually, I want to talk about some stuff or just rant .. which I can’t do it by phone since my parents can overhear.
I failed to convince my mom I’ll treat her to Onami. The hell, it’s a 30$ all-you-can-eat sushi buffet all paid by me for my mom. She denied it because of the typical “we have food at home don’t waste your money on me.” But the thing is, we both need cheering up. D: And we both like to eat.
I’m just sitting here, being a depressed teenager over by dead external hard drive. And recently it hit me that .. if I wanted have an art minor .. my 5 year old portfolio just went down the drain. COOL.
/whine bitch.
I was depressed over my external hard drive breaking … so I downed it with alcohol. Now I feel high, as high as the sky. I would say it’s a stupid move that’d temporarily last because as soon as it wears off, I’m going to be freaking depressed again.
Continued.
When I typed out the acronym ‘PSP’ I had such a random flashback .. of one of the last memories of my grandma. that was pretty random and .. I don’t even. I said that acronym so many times before but this time it triggered a flashback?
I remember her having this huge smile, one of her trademark toothless smiles. She had a surprise hidden for sure. She was wearing gray with blue; she always made her own clothes - they look like your typical Asian clothes worn by your elders. I remember her lecturing my sister about using my laptop. The previous week my sister was using my laptop to play a game (I think Perfect World?) and my grandma saw her. She was afraid that my sister will sooner or later break my laptop so .. she bought my sister a PSP with the funds that Obama gave to grandparents and ish. She didn’t know what it was called so I guess in the previous week, she took out my PSP and drew it on a piece of yellow paper and showed it to some Target employee. They found it for her and yeah … My grandma’s so selfless. Man I remember all the details now .. dang.
And freak, it has almost been one year.
I’m too open / social with too many random people. Got to watch my mouth.
I'm trying to separate my public and personal blogs/thoughts but I think I'm going to fail. It'll be hard to maintain two blogs, you know? Also, please don't follow me if you don't know me/se7enpercent. Thanks.
Just your typical Chinese-Vietnamese teenager striving to find the joys of life and the cure to sleep deprivation.
